Today’s song brings me back a mixture of emotions. Back when I discovered the song (years ago), I’d put the CD in my geezerific CD walkman (those old ones from the 90s the size of my head) and I’d sit outside under a summer night sky and listen to this song with the volume all the way up… and I’d weep… and I’d pray… and I’d scare the cat… and when the song was over, I’d press the rewind button and do it all over again. It was like a big ole rejuvination party of my mind and my Spirit. Music can be so cathartic for me and this song just happened to express everything I wanted for my life. I wanted God to take a hold of my life and mold it and make me see my full potential. I just wanted to feel useful… not like some big ole’ lump who did nothing but sit around and weep in the darkness whilst blasting my eardrums out. (What’s that you say?)
I’ve mentioned that I’ve always been a big daydreamer… my way of escaping my fat. For as long as I can remember, my daydreams always had a fit and healthy me as the star… not the blobbified unhealthy version… and that’s what gave me hope that it wouldn’t always be like that. I wouldn’t always be the fat girl who couldn’t do anything.
Not to get all religiousy on this here blog, but I do believe that God has always had this plan for my life… and for the first part of my life, that plan was for me to go through my years of alone, cut off from the world. I had to go through those years and learn from them to become the person I am today. That was the plan… and when I’d accomplished that portion of my life, I’d lose the weight and I’d be in a place to help others who are in my same situation… give them some sort of hope… that they too can break down their shack walls and build a palace in it’s place. Get yo’ palace, friends… everyone deserves to be treated like a queen/king at some point in their lives.
Take My Life by Jeff McLean: There was no video of this song on YouTube (RUDE!!!), so I slopped together one, no rhyme or reason to the pictures, just a bunch I had taken on some of my many walks over the last year and a half.
I took a snapshot of my life, but the exposure was all wrong.
I couldn’t see a thing developing… it’s been that way for too long.
So, I have come with a request, though part of me thinks I’m insane.
But I’m determined to see this thing through and I… I won’t complain.
Just take my life… and turn it into something better.
Choose any way you will.
Take this shack…
Break down the walls and build a palace up on a higher hill.
I thought I knew where I should go.
I tried to get there on my own.
I took the easy roads.
But now I know that I’m lost and all alone.
So, take my life and turn it into something useful.
Don’t stop until you’re done.
Take these eyes and make them see a clearer vision
of what I can become.
And on those days when I think I’m dying.
I’ll trust in you and I’ll keep on trying.
And if you pick this road I’ll take it.
With you as my guide I know I can make it.
Take my life and make it one that is worth living.
Don’t stop until you’re through.
Take this life, the one that I am freely giving.
I give it all… I give it all… I give it all to you.
I give it all to you.
Question of the Day: What have you most learned about yourself?