Blugh, blugh, blugh, blugh, blugh. I’m just going to start with that and wish I could end with that too… GOOD NIGHT!
I had grand plans to talk about going to a RO-D-E-I-E-I-O in this here first post back from a holiday weekend, but that’s going to have to be postponed due to a concussion I suffered whilst watching the rodeo… pretty sure it was a sympathy concussion… when one of them Wrangler dudes got bucked into the gate head first, I automatically contracted a coma. Boy oh boy… remind me never to go to a boxing match. MOVING ON… more about the rodeo later in the week.
Impromptu topic of the day was inspired by my horridly craptastic weekend of eating. Did I mention the word craptastic yet? Well… it was craptastic! I haven’t been so disappointed in myself in a long time… it’s like I turned into one of those little (except BIG in this case) Pac-Man dudes who was wandering around the house eating everything in it’s path. Mmmm… carpet! This was bigger than my usual numbdumb eating… this was a full on RAVENOUS IDIOT ON THE LOOSE! Out of control on so many levels accompanied by that hopeless feeling I was so used to feeling 217 pounds ago (well, I’m sure it’s now only 214 pounds ago). I’ve been thinking about it tonight… trying to pinpoint why I felt the need to go so out of control, not even bother to keep track of my calories, and have the durndest time finding the gumption to stop myself and say, hey… this is not you anymore! Knock it the heck off!
Instead, I just ate 15 servings of cookies… 8 pieces of pizza… 18 servings of baked steak fries… 6 servings of vegetarian baked beans… 3 mini Fat Boys (ironic, ain’t it)… and a rootbeer float… over the course of 4 days. I did also manage to snack on other things that I can’t even remember now because I did not even bother to log them in my food diary. If this had happened in the past, it would have just turned into this wicked out of control bulldozer, bulldozing on down the path of gain all the weight back and then some… proving those staticians right who say over 90% of people who lose weight gain it back. I’d have just gone back to my old ways 2 years ago. But it’s been so long since I’ve visited “my old ways,” that I’m not even going to entertain that thought.
Since I won’t be choosing the bulldozing option, there’s only one other option. Move on, forget about it, and try to fix it for future reference. As I’ve been thinking tonight about why I went so out of control, I came up with 3 reasons:
1.) PMS!! (oh quit it, men… like you ain’t ever read those words). By the by… these are NOT excuses… just me trying to find ways to deal with Pac-Woman Syndrome. I always find that I snack more just before happy woman hormone hoarding week (okay, fine… and during HWHHW)… but I’m also usually able to curb that at least somewhat.
2.) Sadness… As usual, I stayed home from family vacation weekend. I had come up with all sorts of reasons for why I couldn’t go (some valid, some not so much)… they left on a Friday morning and I had to work on Friday… I hate dealing with germiness and that cabin had to be full of it… Anxiety was on high alert, etc., etc., etc. So, I stayed home and chose to bore myself to death by not doing anything 4th of July-ey… even though I did have a friend who invited me to hang out (thanks, Rachel). I don’t mind spending time with me, myself, and I. I’m not the social butterfly kind of person who always has to have some place to be and someone to do it with. That’s just never been me… but in this instance it might have helped distract myself some.
3.) Habit. Back in the olden days, when I wasn’t allowed to eat anything without sneaking it behind the family’s back, I used to anticipate the times when I’d be alone for the weekend… I’d order me 3 pizzas and eat until I turned green… because I couldn’t do that when the family was around. It became a habit… family would leave, I’d pig out. Even when I’d moved out of the house and the family leaving wasn’t an issue… if I was alone for a weekend, I’d pig out… I’ve had better control over that the last 2 years, but I think it resurfaced when compacted with the other issues above.
When looking at all 3 of those issues… they all come back to the same problem… emotional eating. I eat when I’m bored (especially when I’m bored), sad, frustrated, angry, happy, and PMSey. It’s been difficult to teach myself to only eat when I’m hungry… that’s the only emotion that should be stuffed down with food… HUNGER! Time to take action… I’ve decided I’m going to start charting my feelings every time I eat… at least for the next week or so. I found a chart online that I’ll be using (feel free to join me any of you who want to get a handle on emotional eating):
Yes… it’s 1800’s format… print the sucker and adopt yourself a quill pen with dipping ink. Just like they used to do back in Punky Brewster days! When I’ve charted my emotions every time I eat for the week, the next step will be to come up with a plan… something to replace eating with. I’m anxious to get back into a better routine. I’ve been plateauing now for at least a month or so and it’s probably adding to my emotional eating… the frustration of not seeing the scale move, despite the fact that I’ve been exercising at least 6 days a week. I have no problem with the exercising… it’s a habit now. Time to make eating only when hungry a habit and I’ll have this thing nabbed down to a science. Because… hey, Whitney… this isn’t you anymore. Knock it the heck off!
Question of the Day: Are you up for the emotional eating challenge? Which emotion do you tend to have the biggest problem with when it comes to eating it away?
A few people asked for the recipe I talked about in Friday’s Post, here she be in all her glory:
Chinese-Style Noodle Salad with Vegetables
4 ounces (100g) thin egg noodles
2 teaspoons olive oil
2-3 cloves garlic, chopped
2 tablespoons finely grated ginger
1 bag broccoli slaw (I bought mine in the produce section at the grocery store)
1 red bell pepper, diced
1 yellow bell pepper, diced
1 cup canned baby corn, cut in half lengthwise
4 ounces sugar snap peas or snow peas
6 scallions, finely sliced
4 tablespoons low sodium soy sauce
1 teaspoon Asian sesame oil (I substituted olive oil)
3 tablespoons fresh cilantro leaves (I left these out because I cannot stomach cilantro)
3 tablespoons salted peanuts, finely chopped
1. Bring large pot of salted water to a boil. Cook the noodles in boiling water according to the instructions, then drain them well.
2. Heat the olive oil in a large frying pan and stir-fry the garlic, ginger, broccoli slaw, bell peppers, baby corn, and sugar snap peas for 4-5 minutes.
3. Add scallions, drained noodles, soy sauce, and sesame oil. Toss everything together over a medium heat for another minute, until they are thoroughly combined and hot.
4. Finally, add cilantro and peanuts, toss together once more, and serve.
Nutrients per serving: Calories: 236 Protein: 9 grams Fiber: 5 grams