Exiting The Cave…

There’s a constant struggle between my mind and my heart… like a forever tug of war where the mind always has the upper hand.  I’m not trying to wax philosophical… firstly, I ain’t smart enough and secondly, I had to look up how to spell that word… I rest my case.  What I’m referring to in layman’s terms is my hearts desire to find out and fulfill my full potential versus the mind’s trickery of holding me back.  It’s a smart thing to use your noggin… God put it there for a reason… but then there comes a time when one needs to just jump in… head first… follow that light at the end of the cave of darkness and fear and repression and exit it… because otherwise the darkness wins.

I don’t want to rot for the rest of my life in the recesses of my cave… it’s sheltered me for all of these years and it’s provided a safe place to lay my head.  I know what goes on in the cave.  It’s familiar and there’s no chance I’ll fall off a cliff tucked away in it’s folds, but I also know that I do not advance as a person buried amongst the rubble of my failures and fear.

It feels dang near freeing to have turned my course around, following the light and slowly, but surely, exiting the cave that has so long held me hostage… almost like a rebirth of sorts.  And yet there are times I return to the comfort of that cave, but there are more times that I pull myself up by my boot straps and keep on walking… and that’s what’s important because that’s what living life is about.  Leave that cave behind… the world is a beautiful place on the outside.

The Cave by Mumford and Sons

It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

Because I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s land

So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Because I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be

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7 responses to “Exiting The Cave…

  1. Karen

    Hope it was all right that I gave your blog address to Debbie Hillyard. One of her daughters must be your age and thinks that you are absolutely a sweet heart. Told her how wonderful your blog is and it makes one smile daily. Keep moving forward! You have lots of support and love!

    • I do remember Carlie from back in the day and no, I don’t mind at all if you share the blog… thanks, Karen! I actually say that anyone who reads it deserves a gold star for getting through the blathering! Thanks for the support and love! 😀

  2. Kale

    Beautifully said, Whitney. I think there is comfort in knowing we’re not the only ones who “hide in caves” at times. Thanks for sharing and motivating!

  3. Louisa a.k.a. ProudMomOfTwo

    Proud of you Whitney.

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