One of my biggest issues on this journey of mine… and I really mean the single most huge-mongous… is figuring out how to feel and listen to my hunger pangs. A naturally thin person knows it’s time to eat when they’re hungry. A not-naturally-thing person knows it’s time to eat when the second hand on the clock is moving… basically all the dagnabbed day long. No joking around. I could literally probably eat all day… hungry or not. It’s easy for these hands of mine to stuff things into my pie hole like it be going-out-of-business day at the bankrupt Twinkie factory. Of course I’ve had to work on that over the last few years… and by work on it I really mean sitting on my hands with a piece of duct tape strapped over my pie hole. You don’t lose nearly 240 pounds by not working on that. But, I can legitimately say I still don’t pay attention to my hunger pangs to tell me when it’s time to eat. I use the clock… and my emotions… and I find myself wondering if the hunger thing can ever be relearned.
And then I seem to have really bad short term memory when it comes to eating. I hate the feeling I have when I’ve eaten too much. I feel bloated and nasty and I want to upchuck in the Chuck-up-A-Rama parking lot. And I always vow to myself… NEVER AGAIN!!!!! Never again will you eat so much in one sitting that they have to roll you out the door on a hand truck. NEVER!!! But I always do it again. I forget that awful feeling until I’m once again being rolled out on a hand truck vowing to never eat that much at one sitting ever again… again!! I call it Stuffed-Mentia… you’re stuffed but you’ll have dementia when dinner rolls around and stuff yourself again. It’s like an ongoing battle of idiocy to the millionth degree. Sometimes I just have to say things like… Well, Whitney… at least you don’t have 3-feet piles of animal feces in your house like that one chic on the Hoarder’s show. That usually makes me feel better for 10 minutes… and then I go eat because the second hand just moved 10 seconds.
Question of the Day: Do you feel like you eat only when you’re hungry? What’s your biggest eating trigger?