I would describe myself (especially in the past) as somewhat socially awkward. Pretty sure it stems from the fact that I had absolutely zilch confidence or self esteem, so why the heck would anyone want to hang out with me? Nothing I had to say was worth hearing. At one point I actually felt sorry for the people who had to spend time with me… what a boringly uninteresting individual! That would explain why in social situations I would keep to myself, have a hard time making eye contact with anyone, and if I wasn’t making some sort of lame joke, I wasn’t talking… especially about myself. I HATE talking about myself (which is quite ironic since I seem to have diarrhea of the mouth or fingers, in this instance, on this here blog).
I’ve gained a LOT of confidence over the last 2 years as I’ve been losing weight… A LOT! I would never, ever venture to invite someone to do something with me before. I didn’t want them to have to “be nice” and say yes just because they didn’t want to hurt my feelings. The last few months, I’ve been busy socially. Busier than I have ever been in the past. I’ve met blog readers for the first time (what up Bridgett, Katrina, and Dorothy), attended family events (howdy Aunt Deanna, Uncle Max, Seth, Jen-Jen, and fam), been to several dinners and movies with friends (yo yo Tia, Karrie, Rachel, and Amy), had actual conversations with neighbors, and just have shown my big head (no matter how much weight I lose, I will always be big-headed… it’s in the genes) at places it never would have graced in the past.
I’m sure I’m still as awkward as one of them 3-horned potatoes on a turnip truck, but I think it’s good to have practice… and I find that I’m not as frenetic and always-thinking-of-the-next-joke-to-get-out-of-having-a-serious-conversation-because-I’m-not-bright-enough-to-say-anything-smart way of thinking. So, friends… thanks for putting up with this ole broad. I’m a work in progress, but give me approximately 32 more years and I should have it down pat!
Question of the Day: On a scale of 1 to 10, how would you grade yourself socially? Why do you say that?
Picture Note: Tonight’s dinner with MFP pal, Dorothy… It was so dagnabbed good I almost ate the pineapple shell…. Vegetable fried rice in a pineapple shell… who knew how tasty that would be?